Thursday, July 26, 2007
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
N: The winds started first. A breeze blew the red curtain and the wind chimes reminded me of the beach. You could hear the children scattering running of the field before the storm, then a flash of light, a crash of thunder. Stella scurried into the house. The sky opened up. Screams from the little kids who hadn't made it from the car, followed by giggles. A sheet of rain and then the earth of fresh again.
I love rain storms.
S; I love when i lie in bed and hear the thump thump thump of rain. The drum beat of the wet beads slapping against roof, lying so close to it, wishing it was beading all over my skin.
I love the feel of wet grass and rain in my hair. When my glasses wash over and I can't see a thing and just raise my head to the clouds and feel the way the air feels mid storm and enjoy every blessed drop.
I love rain storms.
Photo - N
Words - Both
Sir Arthur Conan Doyle is known for Sherlock Holmes.
But to me, he's known for so much more.
He was a major Spiritualist. After the death of his wife, his son, his brother, his two brothers-in-law and his two nephews, he fell into a deep depression. The fact that life existed beyond death gave him hope.
He was friends with Houdini, believing him to have great magical powers, but Houdini refuted him, leading to a public end to their friendship.
The Cottingly Fairy hoax totally took him. He believed that the fairies were real and a gift for the other world, so that people would see that imaginary things could become real. That this world was not everything it seemed.
His last words were to his wife: "You are wonderful."
Photo - S
Words - S
Uranophobia
I never told anyone before, but when I was a kid, I would lie in bed and contemplate heaven. The idea that I would be in a perfect place forever, surrounded by love and happiness, terrified me. I would think it over and over until my stomach began to hurt and I would yell and cry out the first thing on my mind. It would be easy to think it was night terrors or a simple inability to sleep. But it was more than that. It was a rejection of what should be everyone's goal. What was everyone's perfect, eternal Heaven was my biggest nightmare.
When asked what I saw heaven as, I would often say a sleeping bag, comic books and a Dr. Pepper. Maybe that's what heaven really is. I don't even think it exists, if you'd ask me today. It seems like such a silly concept.
I think life is like this. As a child, you think of heaven and believe. As you grow older, you get too intelligent to believe. And as you get older, you get closer to the end and hope that heaven is true.
Do you believe in heaven?
Photo - N
Words - S
Monday, July 23, 2007
Stanley Mack was my grandfather. He ate Penrose sausages. Drank PBR before it became ironic to drink it. We drove in his El Camino listening to Johnny Cash while he drank and drove down crazy back roads. He told me, before he died, that I should be happy. He hugged me the last time I saw him and said that. Everything I do is to be the man he was. I will never live up to it, but that's doesn't mean I don't try.
Photo - S
Words - S
I feel like a haunted house in an old Vincent Price movie. You are a ghost lurking in my darkened hallway. Creaky steps and shadowy basements, I hear you at every turn. Sometimes I am going about my day and a memory of you pops out of a secret passageway and frightens me. I often think that maybe I should have a priest or a ghost buster come and exorcise you from me. Would I miss you? Would the silence be deafening? Is it better to be alone and driven crazy by a memory? Or just alone?
Photo - N
Words - N
Friday, July 20, 2007
My parent's yard was made from slag. I would dig up metal when I was a kid. Playing in the slag. My neighbor built a rock garden and to save money, he used slag too. All his plants and children grew up in the destris of a dead factory. It's a metaphor for home - closed mills and small flowers of hope.
Photo - N
Words - S
In the past, the public was entertained with train wrecks. Crowds would watch as two trains were deliberately sent speeding toward one another. Today, I looked at someone's tranwreck site, all dedicated to a loved one who died in one, and only updated to celebrate his passing on anniversaries. The chugging whoo whoo and smelling metallic crashing coal furnace powered slam bam pow of it all - romance, bloody romance.
Photo - N
Words - S
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
There's something about your eyes
And the curve of your thighs
That makes me crazy
I watch you shimmy and shake
Leaving boys in your wake
As your ship rolls on by.
You're a creature of fire
Burning with desire
That threatens to consume me.
A mixture of sugar and cream
Girl you're a dream
And I want to drink you up.
Words - N
Photo - N
I love this road.
Filled with seedy motels, bars, bowling alleys and the only adult book store in town.
Every morning, it heralds my return to my hometown.
"Good morning," it says, reminding me of days gone by when I would meet my uncle as he finished his league night.
Every night, I drive past the motels again and make my way home.
And it makes me sad, but I know tomorrow, I will be back.
Photo - S
Words - S
Monday, July 16, 2007
The women sat and told wedding day stories. Neither of them particularly had a happy one to tell.
The men sat at picnic benches talking about the new bride and groom. The groom said that it had been great, so far, but it had only been a month. The men said that by the law of averages, it wouldn't last. They laughed about that. The way the men talked, it all made me uncomfortable. They seemed so sure of themselves.
I don't think anybody's wedding day is perfect. Unless Jaws jumps out at just the right moment, that is.
Photo - N
Words - S
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Once upon a time, this was a huge park. Rock Point Park. It had thousands of vistors and people swam, danced, road a ride that plunged into the water and generally relaxed around 1900. Now, nothing is left. Except for some rocks and a boat dock, not much.
I imagine life is like a videotape. You can only tape over it so many times before things get left behind. Some people might call them ghosts. That's what I felt like here, that so much psychic energy was given and so much happiness in this place, that you can't help but marvel at the wonder and fun of it.
I stared out at the water for a long time. Just the way it flowed, went around and pooled in different sections. I wondered what it would be like to swim in the water. Wondered what it was like for the people who came here and swam and frolicked so many years ago. They're all gone now. So is Rock Point. And the stories are all gone, too.
This weekend, I thought a lot about stories. Telling them, hearing them. Wondering what kind of stories I will have to tell. I know that some people need to hear all their stories now, before they go away, before they whisper into the air and never come back down again. And I think, what kind of stories would you like to write?
So...farewell Rock Point. For 30 some odd years, I've dreamed of finding you. I will always hold what you could be in my heart.
Photo - N
Words - S
"No matter what you do, don't walk along the high trestle, OK?" said the mom.
"Sure, why would we do that?" said N and S.
Of course they were going to walk along the high trestle. This was an adventure, after all. The way across was somewhat scary, with S in front, checking each board like Indiana Jones on a rope bridge, but not as dangerous, handsome or roguish. N took the rear, walking with Stella the dog, asking if he was sure a tran wasn't coming.
"Old Indian trick, I put my hand on the rails and didn't feel any vibration." S said confidentally. She seemed assured and calm with his expert analysis.
Of course, on the way back, what did they hear?
A train.
They started running. As fast as they could run on the rickety boards. N had Stella in her arms, Sam ran in front. He felt kind of bad, really, he wanted her in front, but she just wanted to get off the bridge as soon as possible. He made it off and ran back for her, to grab Stella, to do whatever. She may have said "I don't want to die." He's not sure. Probably not.
Safety was reached. Dog walked around in her dog way. And the train?
All the way on the other side of the tracks. Far way, actually. S laughed really deep and hard. And neither of them felt dumb.
Photo - N
Words - S
Here's to Heaven
It's where you find it.
I found it in a store I've passed a million times and never stopped in.
If that's heaven, and I think it is, it's run by a little old lady and her 8 year old granddaughter runs the cash reigster and takes your money. It's where they keep board games in an old freezer. And the mirror of your dreams sits outside, half price, just waiting for you to pick it up.
Photo - N
Words - S
Thursday, July 12, 2007
There's a house made for you out there.
It floats in the clouds. And every room has a different set of animals that all love you. And you can extend your anchor and climb up into another room, filled with paint and canvases aching to be made into art.
There's no blackness under your house. Because you can take it anywhere. Go wherever you want to go. Take your dreams to the stars.
And really.
It doesn't matter if your house doesn't float.
Or if you don't have any air conditioning.
Just make your home happy.
Somewhere just for you.
Paint the walls a million colors.
Make your garden grow.
Photo - N
Words - S
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
It's 90 miles from Florida to Cuba. And I don't know if they'd let us in.
But this is what I imagine the boat would look like.
And I like to imagine the pre-revolution Cuba, with sugarcane and casinos.
Maybe they'd give me a gun and say, viva Cuba, and I'd fire it up in the air.
And then you'd laugh and laugh.
Smoke a big cigar.
And find a moped.
Picture - N
Words - S
Monday, July 09, 2007
My eyes stung the whole way down the road.
I couldn't even see.
My eyes hurt.
I wanted to live within the feedback.
Within those drones of guitar.
I wanted to go thin and disappear inside the music.
Go away. Leave my body behind.
My eyes were filling up so fast.
And I couldn't run.
Couldn't hide inside those beats.
Inside that fuzz.
Inside the guitars.
I just had to go back driving.
Hands on the wheel.
Wipe my eyes.
And try and stay on the road.
Photo - N
Words - S
Saturday, July 07, 2007
You're my patron saint. Of drunkness. Of falling down laughing. Of long car rides wih great mix tapes. Of firecrackers. Of street corner goodbyes.
You can be the one I pray to before every dollar store purchase. Any time I read a good novel. Or watch a bad movie on TV.
You say, I'm alive, I can't be a saint. Open your mind up, snookums. You're my saint of thrift store socks. Of aisles of bowling balls. Of art made from crayons.
Laughter for no reason. Or good reason. Whatever people pray to you for, say, I will take the sainthood you have bestowed on me and do what I can with it.
Picture - N
Words - S
Thursday, July 05, 2007
She's going to the doctor to see what they can do
to keep her young.
She's going to inject poisons into her face
to keep her pretty.
She's going to ask them to life things, pull things
to keep her elastic.
You, I can see growing old.
I could never see her as someone old.
She'd never allow it.
You, I can see your eyes.
Between wrinkles and spots.
Age won't take away your spark.
Picture - N
Words - S
Making things happen since 1980
"I was productive, even at birth," she said. "I rolled out of the womb saying 'Let's make some shit happen. Don't slap me. There's no need for violence. Be cool, doctor.' I got shit to solve. I've been waiting 9 months to make it all happen. So let's take a deep breath, give me a bottle, take a nap and let's get to working on fixing some stuff."
Photo - N
Words - N (as transcribed by S)
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